So I am going to do a life update, I feel like a lot has happened since the beginning of March. Matt and I joined a gym transformation challenge. Its 6 weeks, you need to attend at least 4 workouts a week and the workouts are 50mins. They have childcare, which is completely neccessary for me. The workouts are INTENSE but amazing! I have really been enjoying putting in the work.
My husband actually joined the challenge as well! Super proud of him for jumping in with me. Of course, I’m also jealous because he has been having better results than me… despite the fact that I work out more often, constantly on my feet during the day and I eat better. It’s fine, I’m fine…
Adding to the working out, I have also been walking. I have done 3 official 5ks so far this year and I have earned medals for walking a certain distance in a certain amount of time
I am super excited to say that we are going to the Vincent Van Gogh exhibit that is working it’s way around the US.
I am and have been obsessed with Vincent Van Gogh for a really long time, particularly Starry Night (basic, I know). But I can’t help it… I have Starry Night leggings, shoes and decor in my house
Also, one of my besties is coming to the show with us, so that makes it even more special.
In more exciting news, our library has opened back up!! It has been closed for renovations for over a year. And I am happy to say it’s been open for a couple of weeks and we have already been twice.
Some of my current obsessions I am learning about! Matt and I are watching Vikings right now and the show has definitely sparked an interest in learning more.
Well, I think that is all my life right now. I hope everyone is safe and thriving!
It has been a year since I have seen your face, felt your smile or heard you say “Honey” the unique way that you did.
The last time I saw my Nanny was 11/30/19.
We had a makeshift Thanksgiving dinner in her trailer after our plans had failed. My brother, his family, Matt, me and Tobias all crowded into her house and ate our fill. She got to meet my niece Ava for the first time and see Tobias again. It was a tight squeeze but we made it work and I am eternally grateful that we did.
That night is not actually the last time I saw her though. I was supposed to drop off presents to her from my mom but Matt had taken them out of the trunk and did not put them back. The morning after our dinner I got up at 530am and drove the hour and a half to drop them off. That is the last time I saw her. I am extremely grateful I got those few extra minutes with her and I got one last hug; if I had known it was the last one I would have made it last longer.
My only regret is that I did not get a single picture and I know that I have the memory and that is a lot but I regret in general not getting more pictures with her. We saw her several times a year and I never took pictures. She couldn’t make it to my wedding because she was hospitalized again; but I video chatted with her and I wish I had asked the photographer to capture that.
We went to the beach again for Thanksgiving and I cried almost the entire way there. I tear up every time we head that way now because I know she isn’t there. But knowing that it had been one year since I have seen her was especially hard to process, I ugly cried several times and I am wiping some pretty substantial tears off my face as I type.
I can’t say much more on the subject now.
I love and miss you Nanny. I carry you here in my heart.
My grandmother died. She was alone in a train station on her way to visit family.
I called her Nanny and I have been struggling to write down the words about her. Actually I’ve been struggling in general.
I have been putting on a front, brave face, but I’m hurt. I can’t believe she is gone. I can’t believe that I’ll never hear her call me honey again.
I think the shock is what is getting me the most, I’ve lost grandparents; but I knew they were dying. I was prepared for that pain. I was not prepared for a call from my dad on a random Wednesday night telling me the grandmother that was only in her 70s is gone.
I’m struggling now. I can barely swipe my words on my phone’s keyboard.
She was a piece of home for me. Growing up a military brat we moved around A LOT, so we didn’t have a physical home, we had people “homes”. I’ve lost most of them now; my nanny, my PopPop, their houses and my parents.
I still have my parents, thank God, but its not the same honestly. Everybody has issues with parents at some point and I’m no different, my Nanny was my safe place. She didn’t judge me, or get mad at me, she was always proud of me. She just loved me.
I’m thankful I got her for the time I did. I’m thankful that she moved closer to us and that I kept a close relationship with her. I am glad I made a point of seeing her every chance I could.
My husband got me a Nikon D3500 DSLR camera for Christmas and if you are a camera snob I KNOW that it is not the best out there, or even the second best. But I LOVE my camera and it is my first DSLR so I have been very excited to use it whenever I can. It took some getting used to, like using the viewfinder again and not the big screen that I had been using for years.
It is so funny to think of now but I have been getting camera’s for presents for over 10 years! I have always loved taking pictures, I used to be the family photographer when we went on vacations/trips. And then I turned into a selfie obsessive individual in my early 20’s and once I started having kids they became the focus of my lens. Phones with cameras have been my favorite invention, probably ever. I love having the ability to snap moments of joy as they happen because I have a camera conveniently located in my back pocket.
So flash forward to having my first DSLR camera and I am over the moon.
I do not have editing software, these are just natural pics and I am pretty proud of them! I know that they are mostly of my kids but honestly, my family is my entire life and I love having beautiful pictures of them to show off to people.