I had been considering cutting Facebook out of my life for a few weeks and I have finally pulled the trigger, so to speak.
And by pulling the trigger, I mean I deleted it off my phone…. if I was sending a message I would insert a face-palming emoji here. It’s so funny how far my life has come. When I first started my social media journey I was fresh out of high school and using my parent’s computer (also that was Myspace). Now I have apps on my phone so I can check into any social media I want 100 times a day.
It has become an obsession, an addiction and it’s not healthy. I am guilty of posting things just for likes, or comments. I need the engagement, I crave it, I get disappointed if a post doesn’t receive a lot of attention.
I am almost 36 years old…. that should not be a factor in my day. I judge myself CONSTANTLY for being so shallow.
But I am taking a break, I doubt I’ll delete my account permanently. As I have already discovered my entire social life is organized through Facebook. Homeschooling events and my workout group are all on there.
My goal is to disengage, other than neccessary events, as long as possible. I want to track what I do with my time besides scrolling through memes and others lives.
Have you ever quit social media for awhile? Or do you not use social media?
I had to take a mental health break from blogging. It’s kind of funny that something that I love doing can become tedious or something I dread doing. That is my depression and anxiety coming through.
It’s now April 2020 and we have been quarantined for a month. Just like the memes, we started out strong… but it’s wearing on us now
I was really looking forward to homeschooling my kids but as I found out doing the packets IS NOT homeschooling. I don’t even want to go into it!
Days are redundant, we have a picky one year one year old so we watch Cars 1,2,3 or Mater Tales ALL DAY. Schoolwork, Cars, eating and backyard.
Other than doing schoolwork, my oldest has enjoyed quarantine the most. He doesn’t have a ton of friends and his one friend is quarantined as well. He is content playing minecraft and watching YouTube all day. I make him go outside and play everyday to give his eyes a break. Honestly he would probably be ok with this awhile longer.
The baby is loving having everyone home. He gets so much attention and love. He is learning so much, he says kitty, no, yes, mama, dada, dog, car, truck. He also is making car noises.
My daughter is a totally different story. She handles schoolwork well, but does not handle being in the house at all! We have spent a small fortune on things to entertain her. I have also tried to teach her to crochet, make jewelry using UV resin, I let her make slime… which is something I never used to. Everyday she says what craft are we doing today??? I’m running out of ideas!!
My husband is working at home now, we are fortunate that he is considered essential. He is working in our closet Monday thru Friday. Poor man is extremely uncomfortable but it’s the only spot he can be on the phone and not hear everything happening in the house. Other than that he’s fine, probably a little concerned by my new online shopping addiction. But he hasn’t left me yet.
I have great days where I’m killing it and days where I cry getting out of bed. I am an introvert so being stuck in the house isn’t terrible, but I’m an empath and I feel EVERYONES emotions plus my own. So that is exhausting. But I am trying to make the best of the situation. I have started making jewelry, wire wraps and other bracelets.
I have finished quite a few resin pieces, I started making YouTube videos for crafts, mostly kids stuff so far. I have been working out and trying to diet (so far my diet has consisted of EVERYTHING in the pantry). Reading books, started a new series on Netflix, playing with the kids, hanging out with the husband. Cleaning… I’m cleaning constantly, it is LITERALLY a never ending battle of cleaning.
How is your quarantine going? Are you having ups and downs or just smooth sailing?
So I have a lot going on in my life currently, mom, starting a business, house, work, weightloss, wife, pet mom, friend, daughter and the list continues.
Sometimes I have a hard time keeping track of my life. I have a dry erase calendar that I write things, apts, parent teacher conferences, trips on but that isn’t enough.
One thing that I do to help keep my life in order is take screenshots of things that I have to do, remember, look up, laugh at, share with my husband.
These are some of the ones I plan to keep, some of them are Christmas ideas, murder mystery podcasts to check out, diet ideas to look up or try. The tattoo is a response to my sister, letting her know which one I thought was the best. Where to find renaissance festival coupons, measurements in cm for Wish presents. And of course my Hogwarts house, because that’s just important to know.
These are how I keep my life in order. I go through once or twice a week and clean out the ones I don’t need anymore.
I was recently at a meal prep party and I mentioned that is how kept my life in order; to my surprise another mom chimed in that she does the same thing!!
It’s funny that the comment made me feel so justified in my actions, but in retrospect… it isn’t really.
Moms are so hard on themselves, we hold ourselves to such a ridiculous standard and it’s nice when someone else does something as weird as organizing our life with screenshots.
It’s been awhile since I’ve posted a blog and I’ve been feeling guilty about it! I really enjoy taking time out to write these and I’ve been working on the same blog for over a week and it just isn’t right yet.
This past month has been so busy for me it’s hard to concentrate on writing right now.
August is the home of our anniversaries (marriage and dating), both of our birthdays (husband and mine) and back to school for the kids. So we’ve been busy!
The business received several orders for artworks, signs and coasters.
I started working out 2-3 times a week with other moms (I am not a social person so that’s new to me). In the same category, I’ve been talking to the moms at the kids bus stop. I am almost considering a girls night out with them… but it may be too soon.
I got put back on meds for anxiety and depression, that is an ongoing adventure that’s getting a blog for sure!
I’ve been working some weekends cleaning houses, which is ironic because my house is usually a MESS!
My sister is talking to me again! I thought she was mad at me… I tend to say really stupid/hurtful things and usually not on purpose so I was really worried I did it again… but she was just busy (so she wasn’t really not speaking to me, but I felt unspoken to) .
Life has been pretty great lately, I’m feeling proud of myself for everything that I’ve got going on and the meds are working so well that I’m not worried about the other shoe dropping!
As I stated in the last blog I have A LOT going on right now!Business, baby, kids, homeownership, marriage, rats, cats, household chores, weight to lose, babysitting dogs and kids, dealing with my everyday anxiety and depression…. I think that is it.So needless to say my days are pretty full with things I need to do and that means I don’t have much time for things that I WANT to do.I love reading, writing, watching movies and I can definitely fit the movie watching into my life during laundry folding or downstairs cleaning. But reading and writing, those are more difficult. While I am writing this I have 2 laundry baskets of clean clothes to fold and more in the dryer, I have food shopping to do, dinner to cook and a baby’s mind to mold. He is currently getting fussy in his jumperoo which means I will have to stop soon.I feel pretty guilty taking time to even write this, and this isn’t even what I want to be writing. My husband and I were listening to World War Z on the car ride to drop off the oldest kids to their dad and he mentioned it would be a great mini series… I agree and it gave me this inspiration to write. I have not been inspired to do much these days… my life is a lot of forced inspiration.But someday… which is code for never, if you have ever seen Knight and Day.Well baby cries so my distraction must come to an end.